Animal Crackers in my Soup.
Monday, January 23, 2012
Feeling a bit off.
Oh boy, was I wrong! I'm human just like the rest of us, and that means my mistakes are just as dumb as everyone else's. (But who likes to admit that?!?) Recently, I'd been trying to make a relationship work that just wasn't meant to happen, and it wasn't what God wanted for me, and I knew this. It was one of those things I just wasn't ready to give up quite yet. But things didn't get any better. I felt like the decisions that I kept making after that were pulling me farther and farther away from my goal of serving and loving Christ with my everything.
But God is faithful, and he kept putting things into my path that would make me think about what I was doing. As we've been talking about Philippians in church lately, I've been becoming more and more aware that what I was doing was 100% selfish. Paul talks about this in Philippians 2:3, which affirms that one should "do nothing out of vain conceit or selfish ambition..." I was convicted right there on the spot. I kept thinking that I wasn't being selfish and conceited because I was acting in benefit of another person as well as myself, but that wasn't the truth. I was in denial. But what was I supposed to do about it?
I was supposed to stop. Stop doing what I was doing, and give up on what I was "trying" to make better by myself. I also realized that in order to fix something that is broken in terms of relationships, I had to ask for forgiveness, not only from the person, but also from God. I had to be forgiven before I could forgive. The only way I could make this better was to admit fault, and run to God. God would give me the strength and guidance (and conviction) to say the things that needed to be said and deal with things as brothers and sisters of Christ. I'm supposed to live in unity with this person, not make things more complex and crazy. Forgiving isn't easy, especially because I was so confused as to why I was being called to forgive. But regardless, I knew that once I forgave this person and began to see them as a sibling in Christ, things would resolve much better than I could have ever imagined.
What did happen, you might ask? After praying about it and talking to some great people, I talked to the person. I said that I was wrong and that I knew that God was working in me to forgive and show love instead of indifference and hatred. Things now are much, much better than they have ever been, and the relationship is now restored, but only because of the amazing grace and longings that God put in my heart.
Friends, relationships aren't easy. I know, they have their own issues and brokenness just like everything else in this fallen world. But we are called to live in unity and not let little issues get in the way of redeeming a broken relationship. Showing grace is an incredible task, and I can't stress enough how grateful I am for God's everlasting grace. He pulled me up by the bootstraps and told me to stop and forgive. I needed to resolve this so I could get back to my relationship with Christ that I was longing for each and everyday.
And in closing, here is a verse that has helped me remember what I am called to do:
Hebrews 12:1-3
Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, 2 fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. 3 Consider him who endured such opposition from sinners, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.
Run with Perseverance, Brothers and Sisters.
Tuesday, December 13, 2011
blessings in disguise
These masks often cover up things that I should be thankful for.
Do you know what i'm thankful for today? I'm thankful for best friends. I'm thankful for friends who understand exactly what's going on in your life without you having to even say more than a few words. These are the people who truly understand who I am, what I struggle with, and they know who I want to be. These people keep me on track, and help encourage me to get back on track with who I want to be, and steer me away from what I could easily become.
Sometimes we all need a reminder of who we really are, and we need someone to encourage us along the way. That's what friends are for. Great discussions and encouragement even though you've had a rough day/ week are exactly what those blessings in disguises must be for, right? God just loves to surprise me everyday, no matter what.
I'm striving to be more intentional with my actions and thoughts. I should be living my life everyday for the glory of the Lord, and not just for myself. I can do nothing by myself. God is supreme and he deserves my full attention and everything I do is because of him, why should I not live for him? He's given me so much, and so often I take it for granted.
That's just something that always puts things into perspective for me...
Prayers for my friends and classmates as we finish up our semester and finish with tests and papers and projects.
Tuesday, November 8, 2011
you belong here.
Everything seems to fall apart, and you lose control. Not just control over the situation, but you begin to lose control over whatever else is going on in your life. Slipping away from everything you know, you begin to wonder what it is that could be going on in your life that needs rethinking.
This always seems to be the moment where I always begin to consider how broken I am, how I am a sinner, and how wicked my actions are. We all sin and we all screw up. But there is hope. There is hope in something bigger than my brokenness, bigger than ALL brokenness. What is it, you ask? It is grace. Grace takes the most wicked among us and turns us into a beautiful creation. Grace transforms brokenness into beauty, broken hearts into hearts full of love and passion, and the love and passion can then flow through us.
Brokenness is made beautiful. MY brokenness. MY stupid moments. It is all beautiful now.
These are the moments that you have when you are driving down a back road in utter silence and you take in the beauty, beauty of the silence, beauty of the stillness, beauty of the friends who allow you to be who you truly are, and beauty despite your brokenness. Grace surrounds you.
In the moment, things may never seem ok. But my mistakes are what make me who I am. My mistakes are redeemed by grace. I don't need to change a thing.
I belong here.
Thursday, September 23, 2010
who needs enemies when we've got friends like you?
It is really nice for me to be in a place where I can be genuine. I can be me, and no one has to judge me for who I am anymore. I am free of all the burdens of my past, and I turned a new leaf when I started school here. I am the person I am meant to be, and I know this is where and who I am supposed to be at this time. Every chapel speaks to me in a new way, every loving friend shows Christ to me, and my teachers teach me what I am learning in a way that glorifies the Lord. I have never found a place that fits me so well, until now. This is not about me. This is God working through me. And, for that, I am eternally grateful.
I know this is the right place for me when I walk through the Quad, and step onto the Concourse in front of the Cathedral. I get chills every time I realize that me being here is God, and that I am a legacy in the making. I'm a third generation attendee at JBU. I see my Grandfather's brick, and know I'm here because of the love of God and the love of my family. I treasure every moment I have on campus. I feel like a different person here, and even though I'm not a different person than I was before, I just feel like I'm finally in a place that I was made for.
We have so many reasons to be thankful. I'm thankful for the faithfulness of my Grandfather and my family's dedication to this school whose mission is to teach students to be strong Christians, and to put Christ Over All.
To you who read this, thank you. It does mean a lot to me that you read this.
Fly with Christ,
Elizabeth (Liz) Mathers.
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Inevitable.
Thursday, May 27, 2010
Time to Say Goodbye.
7It is right for me to feel this way about all of you, since I have you in my heart; for whether I am in chains or defending and confirming the gospel, all of you share in God's grace with me.8God can testify how I long for all of you with the affection of Christ Jesus.
9And this is my prayer: that your love may abound more and more in knowledge and depth of insight, 10so that you may be able to discern what is best and may be pure and blameless until the day of Christ, 11filled with the fruit of righteousness that comes through Jesus Christ—to the glory and praise of God.
Monday, May 17, 2010
The End.
2 Corinthians 4:16-18
16Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day.17For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. 18So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.
- Graduation.
- Mission Trip Planning and the Trip itself
- ERP-Registering
- Chrysalis
- Moving